Ayeee I'm not dead... Personal shit

Hey, I feel like I haven't written a journal in quite a while... Everything's relatively fine with me (not that anyone cares, or anyone would read this), I've been working a lot, writing every now and then when the muse hits me, and as you recently saw; working on art. I don't really have any future projects in plan. I just really want to try and work on my stories for a bit.

Other than work, and boring stuff... I've been going through a lot of personal/emotional stuff. It's with no one in specific, but just myself... I've been alone for almost two months, and not having many friends, or people who care much around has really gotten to me. I've been really depressed, and anxious, and literally cooped up in my house, and avoiding making contact with people who are not costumers from work, or my boss.

We didn't made our annual trip to Halloween Horror Nights this year, because my husband is away in school, and the only person I was relying on going literally ditched me, and went with another group of people without telling me, after we spoke of me wanting to go. I won't be going to a couple of cons in the Orlando/Tampa area because let's face it, I don't have people who cares about the same crap as I do, or care enough to accompany me to a con. People just don't care for me, and it's been kind of rough to make new friends as well that are not online friends. It may just be me, but whenever I am around other people, I try not to talk about the things I like because I feel like I'm creeping them out, I feel like I'm not normal, or I just don't fit in.

Life's been sucky, but I blame the place I live in... I live in a very small town where nothing exciting happens, and every person my age is focused on having kids, or being a close minded ignorant. My family won't even come and visit me, even knowing that I'm going to be literally alone for a couple of good months in my house. I tell ya' no one cares.

Sorry for ranting, but life's been very monotone, and depressing lately, and I really don't have anywhere else to write this kind of stuff... So don't mind me... I'll try to work on the next chapter of "Meant" and have that out as soon as I can... (Not that anyone cares about that as well... Or my shitty art...) *sighs*